WaterHound
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Its amazing how much grace and patience the lord will give someone that believes in him and is trying to resist temptations plus answering the faithful prayers of his children for that person. But we seen that happen when he said "yes father I'll go down and pay the price for all of them, and allow myself to be killed for the sins of mankind and go to hell for them". Praise god , ma dont I need to obey the measure of the spirit that he gives me right now? Before he gives me more! Jesus wants to see some real drawing close to him , why would he fill a backsliding dirty heart if that heart is just gonna go back to the pig pen! Some of my Pentecostal brethern tell me that l need to get the second baptism and be filled completely to overcome these sin addictions ! And I have prayed and asked god to fill me with his holy spirit but hes not said yes! I think he will in time as l keep drawing closer , I have more than a fearful looking of condemnation , gods spirit is always with me guiding me and helping me with a still small voice, sometimes loud. Jesus will extend a grace period and help wean a christian off sinful addictions if they are trying and willing to obey the spirit of god. Of course god would like to deliver a person right away if they believe and surrender their all. God has kept me alive many times when l was dying from a overdose , this poor man cried out, and god had pity on me and let me live. And I started to realize that i was hurting god and taking a bad advantage of the lords mercy to me, and one day if I did not stop ! God would let me die, and I would go to hell never to repent or feel gods or my wife and family's love again , so l started using less but would fall, get back up go longer this time fall again get back up again apply his blood. And keep on going. So finally I'm drug free ! Would pass a drug test ! And still have anxiety and OCD spells and now l go metal detecting when I get stressed and anxious , back and forth. Back and forth. Back and forth until I am tired . getting sleep is a real problem for people overcoming drugs, and Satan attacks a lot then with bad dreams , and false guilt , l do wish I had gone to a deliverance ministry a couple years back, Satan hindered me, but even saying that! I'm not possessed ! The ground of my heart needs plowing, weeded out! And the truth of gods word planted over and over . ma ! Mike. Warthog christin k boy and others reading will you please pray for me that god would give me more time , to show him I love him , and souls for the kingdom! And yes the spirits filling. As you know their is a reaping for a life of sin and I've been sick alot , I took a blood test , finally , and see the doctor on Monday, but even if this sickness kills me ! I've been given more grace than most, and I have been loved by god! In ezekiel it say even the wicked if they truly repent and do what's right ! They will be saved for the time they have repented , but not good if they go back! Its not easy dieing to the flesh at 58 years old but with god all things are possible, even for warterhound.