Thanks everyone for your prayers & I knew you were praying because some of the spiritual sadness lifted & I wasn't so sad by the time I went to bed 3:30 AM & thinking of suicide like I wanted to do but because of my faith in Jesus & where I would be if I did; so I couldn't! I knew I wasn't able to pray enough to help me; therefore, I asked for prayer to keep myself from even thinking about such a horrible thing satan wanted me to do to be in hell with Him--But Praise God that His Holy Spirit within me is far greater & stronger than the lying devil! You all are so inspirational in your posts & makes me humble & happy to know you all think that much of me, as the holidays are difficult for me; especially Thanksgiving & Christmas! I love you all & you are my family!
Tami, my daughter, bless her heart (who hurts a lot from Fibromyalgia & other illnesses) & really doesn't like to shop & not on her day & night off, but she came & did a month or more in food shopping --filling up my Refrig freezer with TV dinners & such & took my trash to the dumpster in back of the APT complex in the dark. but it is well lit in front & I think in back, also--she didn't say but I made sure she came back quickly & was safe! She also shopped for some needed supplies for bathroom, kitchen & etc; so I can probably say I am set for the rest of the Winter & at least food for over a month & probably two --will only need a few things like milk & bread in between! Cost $121.50 which included the TAX--so not too bad for a month or two of grocery & Misc supplies--Heating Bills are higher but the TV is low but listen more than I watch & Phone & Net are reasonable; so the Lord supplies my needs! PTL & Amen!
Her friend Tom who works at Country Mart gets me a dozen donuts in the morning & reserves them for me until he is off work, as they disappear fast off the shelf than Tami drops them off for me at 9:30 PM on her way to work from 10:00 PM to 8:00 AM every 12 days more or less! Don't tell me they aren't good for me because I like them & that's my breakfast! :grin: I lost a lot of weight 25 pds or more & went from 5ft 2 or 3 to 4 ft. 8 just a little old g-grandma now but not as small as when I graduated in 1953! Okay, see I am back to my long winded self! HAHA So you see my Savior & Lord blesses me with Tami & Susan, my eldest daughter, who gets my mail & does my washing but just wish I could still drive without being afraid of having an accident & they don't want me driving, as I would like to do like I used to from & to St. Louis & to different churches where I was Spiritually fed & to my sister & etc & most of all to go Metal Detecting which alas I think I miss too much! Anyway just wanted to let you know I am okay & Thank you everyone for your prayers & I know many do keep me in their daily prayers & I you--well try to! lol Love ya & God Bless & stay warm! Ma