I have told everybody here how hard it is contending with constant,terrible pain.....That is only one part of my problem.Since meeting Marcia,I have been pushing myself,giving,helping in every way possible.I have had to be the leader in just about every concievable area of our married life,and now,I am about at the end of my rope.
I have been the one 'picking up the ball',for the past 1-1/2 years Marcia and I have been together,and my chronic pain issues have gotten worse right along with it.I thought a few days away would be good,but no.Here is why........
Yesterday,Marcia lost her purse somewhere,we have backtracked trying to find it,no success,I had to mastermind that.After we got here yesterday,we had that issue falling down the stairs in the hotel pool,and management tellling me 'your fault,too bad for you'.........I have been doing too much for everybody else again,not enough for me.I do not sleep at night,and push myself during the day,and am burned out.........
That is the reason I am considering becoming single again..........I am giving 150% to everyone and everything,and getting VERY LITTLE IN RETURN.I need rest and an easier lifestyle,and I have Marcia getting upset because I do not want to watch tv until midnight.I hurt too much to do much of anything,and while up north,I have to drive everywhere,because Marcia doesnt know where to go.I am at the end of my physical strength,and told Marcia so,a while ago-No raising my voice,no dramatics,no throwing things.....
I am a diabetic,and on my way to being a cripple,in constant pain,and can hardly do for ME anymore,much less anybody else,now-And I am ready to leave.I have told her these things before,things didn't change..........Pray for Warthog,I am almost ready to end my third marriage........Steve.
I have been the one 'picking up the ball',for the past 1-1/2 years Marcia and I have been together,and my chronic pain issues have gotten worse right along with it.I thought a few days away would be good,but no.Here is why........
Yesterday,Marcia lost her purse somewhere,we have backtracked trying to find it,no success,I had to mastermind that.After we got here yesterday,we had that issue falling down the stairs in the hotel pool,and management tellling me 'your fault,too bad for you'.........I have been doing too much for everybody else again,not enough for me.I do not sleep at night,and push myself during the day,and am burned out.........
That is the reason I am considering becoming single again..........I am giving 150% to everyone and everything,and getting VERY LITTLE IN RETURN.I need rest and an easier lifestyle,and I have Marcia getting upset because I do not want to watch tv until midnight.I hurt too much to do much of anything,and while up north,I have to drive everywhere,because Marcia doesnt know where to go.I am at the end of my physical strength,and told Marcia so,a while ago-No raising my voice,no dramatics,no throwing things.....
I am a diabetic,and on my way to being a cripple,in constant pain,and can hardly do for ME anymore,much less anybody else,now-And I am ready to leave.I have told her these things before,things didn't change..........Pray for Warthog,I am almost ready to end my third marriage........Steve.