Thank you all for your kind words ....They are really appreciated ...... My brother and I had quite a few long talks before he passed ....He was 3 yrs older than me ...... He was happy with the way he lived his life , and he did and saw what he wanted to do and see ......I looked at his life as somewhat boring , and saw that he did NOT do a lot of traveling in his lifetime , nor did he do 1/2 as much as I have done in my lifetime, yet he was perfectly happy with what he had done and what he had accomplished ..... There is so much more that I would like to do and see ......He was content with what he had done .......So I ask myself " Who is better off ? " ....... My cup is 1/2 full and his ran over !!......
On the lighter side ......
I come from a religious family of Bible folk .....When I asked my brother if he went to the church there at the VA hospital to get right with God , he told me that he had been going on a regular basis ......He said that the first Sunday he went , he went to the wrong service and it was a Catholic service , but he enjoyed talking to the Priest .....The next week he did not go to the same room and ended up tallking to the Rabbi .......The next week he did not go to either room and someone lead him to another service and it was a Prodestant minister who he talked with this time ......As I stayed there in his room talking to him, each one of these men of God came by to see my brother and wish him well .......They came on a regular basis and my brother with Cancer now spread to his brain and spine , remembered them all by name and they all had a HUGE smile when they talked with him .... A little later in the day my brother said " Yeah , at first I thought that I was making a mistake by going to the other services, but the more I think about it , I got all the bases covered so I am assured a place in heaven " .....We had a good laugh !!..... When my brother was not space traveling from the meds , he would laugh and smile a lot .....The last 2 days of his life he slept peacefully , and died in his sleep at 3 a.m. which was the time that he always got up to go and watch his trains EVERY MORNING !!...... I can't help but picture him riding on a train on his way to heaven with a big smille on his face !!......
Sorry for the babbling ...... and thanks for listenning ........Sincerely, Jim