I'm not sure I can take much more of this.

[Digdoug]

To quote Brian tonight, " God, where are you? Please God, where are you?" I know he resides in our hearts, dwelling within our human temples, but when Brian breaks a bone it makes me wonder where he is too. Tonight, just throwing a Nerf football, Brian broke the bone in his upper arm in half, not a straight fracture, but a diagonal fracture about 2-3 inches long. JUST THROWING A FOAM FOOTBALL!!! I'm just so frustrated. Carol is frustrated. We're at a loss as to what we can do for him. Prayer. It is all we have. I know God loves us, especially Brian, and I am thankful for all He has done for us. I mean, I think of what Jesus went through, the pain He suffered on the cross for MY sins, and I am grateful. I know I will dwell in heaven for eternity as will Brian, but here on earth my heart is aching so bad because I can't fix Brian. I'm frustrated and I'm tired. Forgive me for ranting. We can't be seen by his orthopedic surgeon until at least Tuesday, and I know he will want to put a rod in the bone. 4 major surgeries in 4 months!!! I sure am thankful for all of you. Just knowing you are praying for Brian, and us, uplifts us more than you know. It helps us to endure it all! Thank you, so much!!

Doug and Carol

 

[Pete in MI]

in the past where was God. I thought my first marriage was supposed to be the one and only one. When we divorced it tore me up. I had prayed God would bring us back together and it didn't happen. I thought I was praying properly, thought God wanted people to stay married - not get divorced, thought God wnted our family to be one unit - not having our sons torn over the divorce and yes I was mad at God.

Being mad at God didn't bring me closer to Him only closer to this corrupt world nd the sin it offered. I turned my back on God. Figured He didn't care so why should I. I took my own path and gave up on God who I figured gave up on me. This was what satan wanted - me being mad at God and to separate myself from Him. Many years passed and I slipped further into sin and degradation. By then God had no choice but to leave me alone as He cannot staand sin and I was covered head to toe, inside and out with it.

Only til I got to the end of my rope did I cry out to God to deleiver me from my sins nd then the grace of God brought me back to Him.

Did this repair the broken marriage? No. I stopped trying to figure out why God does or allows things to happen the way He does. His ways are higher than my ways. Do I think He does things the way I think they should be done? No. And like you we know all things work for the good of those who love Him and the end result is to be with Him forever. I can't take away your pain. Wish I could. Wish I could make life easier for you or to give you understanding. I don't understand things myself. I can pray for you, the wife, Brian and the rest of the family and friends.

I will add Brian to our church prayer chain and you and your family as well.

Know this: God loves you and Brian and your family. I sometimes wonder if it isn't satan casting doubt in your hearts about God being 'on vacation' or 'not there' that causes us to hurt even more than we need to. I don't know Doug. I wish I had the answers. My prayers to Brian and to your family go out. Jesus said if anyone needs wisdom to let him ask of God. I guess this would be one of those times to ask God for the wisdom Jesus said He would give to us if we asked.

Try to keep faith and hope Doug. We are pulling for you and Brian and the rest of the family.

 

[Joe G]

I don't even know what to say. My heart breaks for Brian and all of the suffering that he's gone through at such an early age. Too much. I also feel for you and Carol. I can't imagine what you two have gone through over the years.

I don't understand why the Lord would let this be but I do know that He is God and He is is control. He is the One who created all things, set the moon and stars in their place. We all have to have faith that their are reasons for everything that happens and God knows what's best for us.

I sure wish He'd let us in on it sometimes though...

I'll pray for all of you.

JG

 

[Mike from MI Iron Brigade]

Jeremiah 29:11 says (For I know the plans I have for you," declares the Lord, "Plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. I can see and feel your frustration brother. I strongly believe that God had plans for you, and especially Brian. Be faithful, and mighty things will be done for the Lord. Many people will someday know what Brian has been through, and they will see how you all made it through! Remember with the faith the size of a mustard seed, you can move mountains! You are all in our prayers, and tell him Mike said to keep his chin up! God bless!

 

[Greg from Mi.]

remember Psalms 34:17
The righteous car out and the Lord hears them. He delivers them from all their troubles. The Lord is close to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit.
Greg from Mi.

 

[puddlejumper]

there is no way we can share you feeling of utter helplessness. It's one thing when we are suffering, but another when it's our child and we can't fix it. Our son was asthmatic as a small child, and used to cry out Daddy help me, when he couldn't get his next breath, and I couldn't help. The only way I can encourage you is to tell you that he is now 47 years, and doing well. I don't know why we go through things here on earth, but the important thing is that we go through them. Just don't stop.
I continue to lift your family up in prayer for strength and healing, and understanding.

 

[Digdoug]

I read Ronbo's post about the rescue efforts down in New Orleans and Mississippi and was brought back into the real world and reality. I feel ashamed about forgetting how good I have it. So many people have lost loved ones, there homes, all that they have! They were stuck on roof tops with no food and water for days. I have followed the news since day one and have been praying for all those affected by the hurricane and will continue to pray for them.

I was momentarily lost in my sons, and my own, little world and am ashamed to admit that was all I thought about. He will recover and go back to school again. He'll walk and play and hopefully metal detect with me again soon. He is tough, tougher than I am, and we will endure and fight the good fight.

Thanks,

Doug

 

[Lil Brother]

"I sought the Lord and he answered me. He delivered me from all my fears." This is the verse that my wife, Carol put on an index card when we found out that I had hepatitis C. I have looked at this everyday for the last year while taking treatment. It is still on my sun visor.

Doug, you and your family are in my prayers. God Bless you and always have faith. Pray for nothing less than COMPLETE healing.

God Bless you all,

Lil Brother

 

[Anonymous]

easier.Last night as I lifted you and your family in prayer when I thought of Brian the picture you posted of him detecting came to mind .Thanks for sharing that moment and I pray that God will bring complete healing and give you comfort.God bless

 

[SilverSeeker]

we are all to go through trials and tribulations on this earth no matter how small or big. Keep an upper chin and don't fret for God is with you even unto the ends of the earth. I'm going to be praying for Brian and you and wife to get through this. Here's a poem for you and your family.

 

[steve in so la]

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[MI$$OURI BETTY]

With Jesus and don't give up. His Yoke is easy by allowing Him to bear our burdens is how we get through them all! Are they heavy? They are only as heavy as we'll allow them to be! I know in your pain and heartache 'tis hard to understand God. We don't need to understand just to have faith knowing that He is working all things together for His Children's good and for His purpose! Why is Brian's bones so easily broken and why does he suffer so much with pain and surgery? Don't know, but I do know God loves him, you and Carol with an everlasting love! There are all kinds of diseases in the world such as cancer of all kinds, lung diseases, bone diseases, blood diseases which affect both the young and old! Satan causes sicknesses and Jesus is the Great Physician and Healer, so don't let this trial get you down as He has brought all of you through each one and He will this one, too!

It's hard to see our children and their children suffer, but many times God knows this is what will help them to cry out to Him and pray or pray more! Easy times in life causes many to forget about Him or to quit praying so much! I'm not saying that your family has but it happens....even with me!

So like I said keep faith in Jesus and don't let satan get the best of you! We all on this forum love Brian and are praying for him to be healed in Jesus' name!

God Bless you all!
Betty

 

[Paul (AR)]

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[Digdoug]

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[Digdoug]

...we aren't giving up, just a little frustrated. And we'll never give up on our Lord and Saviour!! That is where we get our strength. I was just expressing some selfish, self pity! You are right about all the terrible diseases out there, many, many much worse than Brians. Every child we met at the National Institute of Health had disorders much worse than Brians. We are really fortunate. Thanks for reminding me.

Doug

 

[Digdoug]

Thanks for the kind, encouraging words and prayer. I saved the poem to my computer to share with the family.


Doug

 

[Digdoug]

...thank you! It does make it easier, knowing you are lifting Brian and us in prayer.

We appreciate it!

Doug

 

[Digdoug]

I think of Joni Erickson-Tada, and what she went through, and how Jesus Christ is using her and her ministry. My prayer is Brian or I can use this situation to witness to others. I have been told many times how Brian is an inspiration to people by how he overcomes his set backs. He almost always has a smile on his face. Thanks for the prayers and encouragement.

Doug

 

[Digdoug]

...thanks for the prayers, and the verse!

Doug

 

[Digdoug]

...thank you! I will do the same, I need that reminder in my daily life as well. I have many fears I need to conquer, and with His help I will.

Thanks,

DOug