My early years were rather traumatic and I have learned in recent years that I have that learning disability thing. My grandson has it and they finally got him on meds, my daughter resisted it but they finally did and now he has been straight A's since, he plays the piano and Horn and reads at Junior college level, he is 12. It is sorta sad but Ben now refers his early days as, "Back when I was a bad kid"
They had not even heard of that stuff when I was a kid and I just, along with everyone else, just figured I was a dummy. It was rough on my mother and since my dad died when I was 12 they blamed it on that. I was just a rotten kid in every ones view and that included my own.
My journey since then has been a long and twisted one and many times I think if what might have been if I had done this differently or that differently, who would I have been now days. Prison would have been a great possibility for sure.
What would my life have been like if there had been meds available for me back then? Would I have been that Veterinary I wanted to be since the age of 5? Possibly but who knows.
I did pretty good considering but many times through my later schooling odd things would happen. Things like studying my arse off and having a hard time getting it into my head and being disgusted at test time because I just did not understand the subject at all. Taking the fruggin test and aceing the thing and usually being the first finished. I just didn't understand that crap. There were times that I would ace a dang test and walk out wondering if I had cheated and if I did, why didn't I know it? It was frustrating for me.
I had to take Trig as part of my apprenticeship. What the hell. I only finished the 9Th grade for crying out loud. In face I spent two years in the 7Th, two years in the 8Th, two years in the 9Th and started the 10Th, again passing because of my age and said to hell with it and went into the Marines. at 17.
Well I had to take trig and back then we had to use the slide rule. I hated the slide rule because I had a hell of a problem getting it in my head where to put the decimal. Make that mistake and you missed the problem. Well I ended up doing it all long hand. No calculator back then and I could not use the dang slide rule! Try doing Trig long hand. Some simple part of the problem might take two pages and by the time I had the final answer, which was only part of the problem, I would have some times forgotten what the hell I wanted it for. I would sometimes toss it! AND start over. It was very frustrating for me for sure. I just knew I was a dummy.
I remember taking a final Physics test. I had taken Alg and done good but it was one of those things where I didn't have a clue how the hell I aced the class because I just did not understand Algebra at all. Just would not compute in my squirley head. But I aced the thing.
When I took the Physics test I turned in the paper and sat back down. The teacher was grading them as we turned them in to save time. He asked me how I got an answer to one of the tougher questions. I asked if it were right and he said it was but he wanted to know how I did it. I told him.
He just looked at me. I had to figure out my own way of solving the problem as I did not trust myself with the dang formula! I explained to him the way I figured it out and just looked at the paper again and back to me. I will never forget, he said, "Jesus H ***** ! I could not have done it that way! Well it was the only way it made any sense in my squirrely head.
I figure I have been pretty lucky with my life and my squirrely head and am sure happy my grandson does not have to go through life thinking he was a dang dummy.