One day I just snapped and had a nervous break down. Not to the point where I was chasing ghosts or talking to imaginary friends, and not to the point where I had to be put into a hospital, but it was very bad. I had anxiety so bad that I was shaking like a leaf, I couldn't sleep, and I ended up getting very depressed on top of that. I wasn't sure what was going on and ended up going to a doctor. That was when I found out what it was...extremely bad anxiety that was also causing depression. Not only that, but I then realized looking back that I've had this anxiety most of my life. I could think back to even my pre-teens and see all the trouble it caused me from then on.
Runs in the family. My dad had it and so does a brother and sister of mine. It kept getting worse for about the last five years of running my business, and each time it seemed to get worse and worse. They put me on different anxiety drugs, some of which made things even worse. Finally had enough and realized the business was going to kill me, so off I went to a trade school and slowly got rid of my accounts.
After I graduated from the school to be honest I wanted some time off as my nerves were still rather bad. That didn't really matter to me as I wanted to tie up some loose ends, help take care of a sick uncle, and let things settle down a little more. I wasn't happy with the meds they had me on anyway so I wanted to get that sorted out. Finally got on the right meds and all seemed to be looking up. Lately though it's been creeping up on me again because I keep thinking..."3 years out of the school and I haven't even taken a job in it yet." Kept waiting for the economy to get better but it sure hasn't. I can explain the gap since graduation to employers by saying that I stayed somewhat self employed waiting for the economy to improve, but it still bothers me. Trying not to let that or the economy get to me because I don't want things to get worse again.
Nerves are a funny thing. You wake up one day and you just aren't the same. I wouldn't wish it on my worst enemy.
Long story short...I've had my belly full of being self employed and besides I need the experience to even consider being off on my own with my own service business. Just don't have all the knowledge that is needed. Before attended the school I had always messed around with electronics so I already knew how to read schematics, solder, diagnose problems and such with a multimeter, how relays worked, etc...So I ended up with the highest grade in there. I would figure having a true working knowledge of electrical troubleshooting should put me ahead of most guys who really still don't know what they are doing when they graduate.
I've got universal CFC Refrigerant License, AHRI (ICE) certification, and a class 5 low pressure boilers license, along with a diploma. Problem is everybody wants experience, and there are plenty of guys out of work with that. I've been told that this trade has a shortage of techs, and that all the trades are going to have a big shortage of plumbers in such starting in the next few years due to baby boomers retiring. Just hoping all that stuff is true.
So there's my story. Never thought I'd see the job market stay this bad for this long. It's been bad here in Cleveland even before it started getting bad everywhere else.
Have to get off this computer for a bit. Might have a minor thing or two more to say after I re-read your posts.